Friday, March 19, 2010

Sooo Tired!

I have been so tired this week. I feel like a complete zombie right now. I've been getting plenty of sleep so I'm not sure what the issue is. I feel like I have been completely thrown off by daylight savings time.

My mood has been all over the place too. I have had times of feeling happy, sad, frustrated, etc all in just the last few days. Yesterday at work I was ready to tell them to go F themselves and just walk out. I have decided that I have a very unknowledgable and unsupportive supervisor. I had a few difficult situations yesterday and when I went to her for help she not only didn't understand what the situation was, but she couldn't even admit she didn't know what to do and just gave me some BS answer.

I have already talked to her boss about some of the things that are bugging me just to make sure that I'm not being ridiculous. He gave me so suggestions of how to talk to her about what is going on and told me that I need to stop stressing out because I'm doing a good job. I have been feeling so stressed out that I started crying when I was in his office talking to him. I think I need to request that I be put under another supervisor if something doesn't change soon.

Tuesday, March 9, 2010

It Didn't Last

A week ago I was feeling so upbeat and optimistic about life. The following week hasn't been so great. I have found myself feeling stressed out about my job again and just kind of down.

It hasn't helped that I haven't been feeling that good. I stayed home from work on Sunday. Mainly I was feeling really feverish, but another part of me just didn't want to deal with work. Yesterday was spent getting a lot of rest and just a few things done.

I'm feeling a lot better today both physically and mentally. I think all the sleeping I did yesterday helped to fight off whatever bug I had. As far as my mental cure goes, I went to the Sacramento Temple.

It made me realize that the crazy things in life are so insignificant and helped me to focus on more important things. I have really been trying to fix my relationship with God lately. I have felt so distant from religion. I feel like I am starting to get back on track. I have decided that I need to get back into the habit of reading scriptures every day and for now at least I am going to attend the temple once a week. I am going through a tough time lately for whatever reason and I need the Lord's strength to help me through.

So, my great mood from last week didn't last. However, I'm picking myself up, brushing myself off, and continuing on.

Tuesday, March 2, 2010

Getting Into the Swing of Things

I have been working from 2-11pm for several months now and have been hating it. I still can't say that I love working nights, but I'm starting to enjoy it more. It is kind of nice being able to make appointments that I don't have to take off work for. Plus, having Mondays and Tuesdays off gives me the chance to get stuff done when there aren't as many people out and about.

I have loved my last two days off. I have been so productive and yet I feel relaxed too. I am almost done with the laundry, I started some spring cleaning yesterday, I got the grocery shopping done, and dinner is in the crockpot. I feel like a regular Suzy Homemaker!

I used to think that it would drive me crazy being a stay at home wife/mom. However, now I'm not so sure. I get a wonderful sense of accomplishment from cleaning the house and taking care of my family.

Well, there is more to do. Just wanted to pop in a say hi and that I'm doing well. I hope this good mood and attitude lasts.

Monday, March 1, 2010

Crazy Couple of Days

If you are wondering why I haven't posted lately it is because life has been kind of crazy. Our car decided it didn't want to start on Tuesday. The crazy thing is that we were worried there was a problem and I had just had the battery, alternator and starter checked the day before. It turned out that stupid guy I had check everything must have had no clue what was going on because he told me everything checked out fine. It turned out that we needed a new starter.

We had our SUV towed over to the mechanic on Wednesday and they replaced the starter. Everything seemed great until Soren tried to leave work on Thursday and the car wouldn't start. Turns out the starter they gave us at Auto Zone was a piece of S**T and only lasted one day.

So, then on Friday I had to take Soren to work in the morning and call a tow truck to have our vehicle taken back to the mechanic. Once I was there they tested it and said we got a bad starter and that I would have to go get another one. I thought: "You've got to be kidding me." Not only do I have to deal with getting the SUV to them, but they wouldn't even exchange the starter for me and were going to make me do it. Sure, we bought the starter on our own, but they couldn't even help me out a little?

To make it even better I had my HSG appointment that I was going to have to hurry to get to. I told them to take the starter out and I would come back to get it and exchange it. So then I drove like a mad woman to my appointment and was still about 20 minutes late. I was so worried that I was going to get there and have them tell me that I was too late and they wouldn't be able to fit me in. Lucky for me they were running late themselves.

They took me back and had me put on a hospital gown. When I got in the room they started to tell me about the procedure and I told them I knew exactly what was going to happen and proceeded to detail the whole procedure to them. They were surprised that I was so calm and told me that some women they get totally freak out. I have to say it was very painful, but at least it didn't last too long. The worst part was that they kept having me move so they could take x-rays from different angles. Moving around while having intense cramps was the last thing I wanted to do. Curling up in a little ball was my natural instinct, but I breathed through the pain.

They were so sweet and one of them petted my hair while I was in pain to comfort me. After it was done they let me lay there for a while while the pain subsided. I was told there didn't appear to be any blockages, but that they would have to examine the x-rays closer to make sure they didn't miss anything that wasn't obvious.

When I was getting dressed again I had to use the world's biggest pad so that the dye and spotting wouldn't get all over my underwear. I don't know who this pad was designed for. It was the longest pad I have ever seen. I don't think it is possible for any woman to have that long of woman parts.

After the HSG it was back to the mechanics to pick up the starter, then back to Auto Zone to have them give me a new one. They gave me the hardest time at Auto Zone. Supposedly they tested the starter and said it worked fine. I told them I didn't care how it tested and that it didn't work when it was in the vehicle. After a little bit of argument I got them to agree to exchange it. This is where things got complicated because the idiots couldn't seem to figure out how to do the exchange through their system and they were trying to charge me $40 extra for it. After waiting for what seemed like forever the one person in there with half a brain did the exchange properly and I was on my way.

From the mechanics I had to go straight to work. I didn't get off of work until 11pm. I had left the house at 7:30 that morning and didn't get home until 11:30. I was dead tired by the time I got home.

I have the next two days off of work and I have to say that I think I have never looked forward to time off as much as I am right now. I hope I never have to repeat what happened this last week.