Tuesday, February 17, 2009

I have an interview!

Soren and I have been getting so stressed out. We still don't have jobs even though we have been handing out resumes like crazy and filling out as many applications as we can get our hands on. We chose a great time to graduate and move. Our bank account has been steadily dwindling and as it does our stress level goes higher and higher.

Anyway, I have been feeling pretty desperate so I have been applying to retail establishments. (I'm not trying offend anyone that works retail. I just hate working rotating shifts.) I figure I have a ton of experience since I worked my way though college doing retail.

I think luck is finally starting to get on my side because I not only have an interview, but it is one for a great position. If I were to get it I would be an Environmental Planner for the California Lands Commission. I really hope I get it so that I can feel like there was actually a purpose for me getting a Bachelor's Degree.

I'm going to have to do some studing and preparing so that I can do my best at the interview. Wish me luck! Hopefully in a couple weeks I will be employed and loving my job.

Friday, February 13, 2009

Infertility Etiquette

I lady I know gave me a link to a website that talks about what to say and not say to a person that is dealing with infertility. As someone who is struggling with infertilty and has had many people say rude and inconsiderate things to me during this whole emotionally painful process I felt I would share a few quotes from the website. If you want to read the whole thing here is the link: http://www.resolve.org/site/PageServer?pagename=lrn_ffaf_ie

"Chances are, you know someone who is struggling with infertility. Yet, as a society, we are woefully uninformed about how to best provide emotional support for our loved ones during this painful time. Infertility is, indeed, a very painful struggle. The pain is similar to the grief over losing a loved one, but it is unique because it is a recurring grief. Infertile people grieve the loss of the baby that they may never know. They grieve the loss of that baby who would have had mommy's nose and daddy's eyes. But, each month, there is the hope that maybe that baby will be conceived after all. No matter how hard they try to prepare themselves for bad news, they still hope that this month will be different. Then, the bad news comes again, and the grief washes over the infertile couple anew. This process happens month after month, year after year. It is like having a deep cut that keeps getting opened right when it starts to heal.

Your infertile loved ones need your emotional support during this journey. Most people don't know what to say, so they wind up saying the wrong thing, which only makes the journey so much harder for their loved ones. Knowing what not to say is half of the battle to providing support.

Don't Tell Them to Relax
Everyone knows someone who had trouble conceiving but then finally became pregnant once she "relaxed." Couples who are able to conceive after a few months of "relaxing" are not infertile. By definition, a couple is not diagnosed as "infertile" until they have tried unsuccessfully to become pregnant for a full year. In fact, most infertility specialists will not treat a couple for infertility until they have tried to become pregnant for a year. This year weeds out the people who aren't infertile but just need to "relax." Those that remain are truly infertile.

Comments such as "just relax" or "try going on a cruise" create even more stress for the infertile couple, particularly the woman. The woman feels like she is doing something wrong when, in fact, there is a good chance that there is a physical problem preventing her from becoming pregnant. Infertility is a diagnosable medical problem that must be treated by a doctor, and even with treatment, many couples will NEVER successfully conceive a child. Relaxation itself does not cure medical infertility.

Don't Minimize the Problem
Failure to conceive a baby is a very painful journey. Infertile couples are surrounded by families with children. These couples watch their friends give birth to two or three children, and they watch those children grow while the couple goes home to the silence of an empty house. These couples see all of the joy that a child brings into someone's life, and they feel the emptiness of not being able to experience the same joy.

Comments like, "Just enjoy being able to sleep late . . . .travel . . etc.," do not offer comfort. Instead, these comments make infertile people feel like you are minimizing their pain. You wouldn't tell somebody whose parent just died to be thankful that he no longer has to buy Father's Day or Mother's Day cards. Losing that one obligation doesn't even begin to compensate for the incredible loss of losing a parent. In the same vein, being able to sleep late or travel does not provide comfort to somebody who desperately wants a child.

Don't Complain About Your Pregnancy
This message is for pregnant women-Just being around you is painful for your infertile friends. Seeing your belly grow is a constant reminder of what your infertile friend cannot have. Unless an infertile women plans to spend her life in a cave, she has to find a way to interact with pregnant women. However, there are things you can do as her friend to make it easier.

The number one rule is DON'T COMPLAIN ABOUT YOUR PREGNANCY. I understand from my friends that, when you are pregnant, your hormones are going crazy and you experience a lot of discomfort, such as queasiness, stretch marks, and fatigue. You have every right to vent about the discomforts to any one else in your life, but don't put your infertile friend in the position of comforting you. Your infertile friend would give anything to experience the discomforts you are enduring because those discomforts come from a baby growing inside of you.

Don't Treat Them Like They Are Ignorant
For some reason, some people seem to think that infertility causes a person to become unrealistic about the responsibilities of parenthood. I don't follow the logic, but several people told me that I wouldn't ache for a baby so much if I appreciated how much responsibility was involved in parenting.

Let's face it-no one can fully appreciate the responsibilities involved in parenting until they are, themselves, parents. That is true whether you successfully conceived after one month or after 10 years. The length of time you spend waiting for that baby does not factor in to your appreciation of responsibility. If anything, people who have been trying to become pregnant longer have had more time to think about those responsibilities. They have also probably been around lots of babies as their friends started their families.

Perhaps part of what fuels this perception is that infertile couples have a longer time to "dream" about what being a parent will be like. Like every other couple, we have our fantasies-my child will sleep through the night, would never have a tantrum in public, and will always eat his vegetables. Let us have our fantasies. Those fantasies are some of the few parent-to-be perks that we have-let us have them. You can give us your knowing looks when we discover the truth later.

Let Them Know That You Care
The best thing you can do is let your infertile friends know that you care. Send them cards. Let them cry on your shoulder. If they are religious, let them know you are praying for them. Offer the same support you would offer a friend who has lost a loved one. Just knowing they can count on you to be there for them lightens the load and lets them know that they aren't going through this alone."

I know this was long, but I really felt I needed to share it.

Monday, February 9, 2009

Developing my green thumb

Look at my beautiful tomato sprouts!


First of all: I must admit that I am not even close to having a green thumb. In the past the only plant I could get to stay alive was ivy. This was mainly because it is very forgiving and it won't completely die if you forgot to water it for a few weeks. My husband jokingly says I have a black thumb because I kill plants. I would argue it isn't that bad. After all, it wasn't me that practically killed our house plants by placing them on the BBQ and not moving them when he fired it up. (They looked so pathetic!)


Anyway, I have decided that I am going to learn to have a green thumb. I have always found gardening enjoyable, I just haven't really been that good at it. I have decided we are going to have a vegetable garden this year. There are a few things that had to be started indoors. Well, I planted them and then crossed my fingers that they would actually grow for me. I was so ecstatic when they started sprouting this weekend. Yay, there is actually hope for me having a garden!