Thursday, January 28, 2010

No Longer With Us

Sorry that it has been so long since I last posted. The last two weeks have been pretty crazy. I'm not sure if you all knew, but we have had my grandma living with us. She has been in pretty bad health for the last few years and has been going steadily downhill. Luckily we have had a program through the county that sent in a care giver to help take care of her. Almost two weeks ago on, Friday, Jan 15 we got a call from her care giver saying she was doing really bad and that we needed to come home. My grandma has been on hospice for the last few months so we called hospice and they sent out a nurse. The nurse examined her and told us that she was in the process of dying and that we needed to try to keep her comfortable.

We called the whole family and let them know that they might want to come see her before she passed. My aunt and uncle ended up coming and staying the whole week. My grandma passed this last Friday. She was surrounded by family and while I am sad to see her go, I am also happy that she is no longer trapped in her failing body. I know that she is with my grandpa again again and I'm sure that she is much happier now. She has not truly been a part of our world for quite a while now and it is good that she can go onto the next stage of her life where she will be able to be herself again.

Her funeral is this Saturday. I have been asked to give the eulogy. I'm not really sure what I want to say. There have been so many thoughts that have been going through my mind. I know there are a few stories that she would want me to tell, like the fact that she lived on Alcatraz island (while it was still a prison). More than anything I just want to convey that she lived a good life and that all that knew her were made better by her love and support.

Tuesday, January 12, 2010

Goodbye Mole

I went into my doctor today to have a mole checked. The mole is right next to one of my boobs and has been bothering me lately. I had the mole for as long as I can remember and it hasn't changed or anything. It just seems like my bra started rubbing it the wrong way.

The doctor looked at it and said it looked okay, but that she wanted to remove it since it's been bothering me. I've had a mole removed in the past so I didn't think much of it. I don't remember it hurting so much afterward last time though. I'm not sure what she did, but it is really sore and puffy. It was just removed this morning and I cleaned it tonight so I don't think it is infected or anything.

To top it all off I am kind of mourning the loss of the mole. I'm not sure where this is coming from considering I don't really like any of my moles. Maybe it is just because I had the mole for so long that it feels like I lost a piece of my childhood. I know that sounds weird. After all, it's only a mole. I'll get over it.

Thursday, January 7, 2010

We Have An Appointment

I got my fertility questionnaire filled out and sent back. I just used the same manila envelope they sent it all in to send it back. The envelope looked a little funny will labels over the old labels and information blacked out, but I figured why waste money on another envelope. The point is that they got the info back and called to sent up an appointment for the fertility seminar.

I was kind of annoyed with the person who originally called. She called me about 2pm and in her message she said she would only be in the office for another 30 min (wouldn't it be nice to have that schedule), but I could call and leave a message for her. Then she said the number so fast that I had to listen to it at least 10 times and I still didn't understand all the numbers. I ended up calling the main number today so that I could actually get a hold of someone (anyone) to schedule the next step.

They hold the seminar once a month and the next one is on Feb 2. It looks like I will have to take time off work to go to it, but at least we are moving forward. I hope after this this it won't be too long before we can actually get some testing done. I guess the wait gives me more time to lose weight. I'm hoping to be at a healthier weight if/when I get pregnant.