Over the last few days I started to believe that it was possible I might be pregnant. I was trying not to get my hopes up, but hope still crept in. Needless the say, it was pointless. Why do I put myself through this. After 3 years of not being able to, why would it happen now?
There was a little time yesterday when I started bleeding that I felt sorry for myself. I'm doing okay, but I definitely feel stupid for letting myself hope that I could be pregnant. Why do I open myself up to being hurt? I wish I just knew one way or another if I was ever going to be a mom so I could deal with it and move on with my life.
6 comments:
Julie, I am so sorry. I understand and its hard. Try and stay positive keep your hopes up. Just know that I am thinking about you. :)
(Hugs) I understand your pain.
I'm sorry Julie, that really sucks.
I still do that and it's been close to 3 years of ttc #2 with 2 losses in there. ((HUGS))
Hang in there Julie! You will be a great mother some day!! Love ya!
(((HUGS)))
I'm sorry she showed! I think it would be so much easier to not be a mom if i didn't WANT to be a mom so badly!
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