Moving SUCKS butt!

The last few days have been full of packing up all of our stuff. It has seemed like the packing will never end. I can't believe how many boxes we packed. We went through several rolls of tape. We are both feeling very burned out.

On top of it all I have been working this whole week. I had to in order to get my seasonal bonus. I'm sure it will be worth it when I get the check but it really sucked not having more time to help Soren pack all of our things. I was even at work when people came over to help load the truck. It sounds like there were plenty of people so I guess I wasn't missed that much. I am so grateful for the people that came over to help us. When we moved in we had no help from the ward and it was horrible. I tried getting a hold of someone in the ward to help us, but no one ever responded. This time it was much better. Thank goodness for church members that will help you move.

So, now we just have to clean the apartment and leave. Hopefully the trip home will be quick and uneventful.

We're Done!

Soren and I had our very last Final today. Yay! We are officially done with our college careers. Soren's parents are flying into town tomorrow for our graduation. I'm excited for them to come into town. We are going down to Fargo to pick them up. Soren has been having fun telling them how freezing cold it has been. They are in for quite the treat. We'll see if they will turn around and go right back into the airport. It was -5 degrees at one point today.

Now that classes are out of the way we are going to have to do some serious packing. I listed several things for sale, including our SUV. Hopefully we won't have any problem selling our car. We really don't want to have to take it with us.

Anyway, I'm so excited that we are going to be able to move on with our life. I will miss all of the people in Grand Forks. However, I'm all super excited to see all the people I love in Sacramento.

The Disapointment Continues

Most people who know us know that we have been trying to get pregnant for almost two years now. The last few days I was getting my hopes up a little because I was having some pregnancy symptoms. Rationally I told myself I knew I wasn't pregnant because why would I get pregnant now after all this time of being unsuccessful. I had pretty much given up worrying about it and over the last few months had been doing a really good job of not thinking about it.

I don't know why I let myself get hopeful. I know we aren't going to be able to have children on our own. We will probably have to adopt or something. We will cross that bridge when we get to it though. I cried today when I found out I was not in fact pregnant. It's really horrible having such a strong desire to have children and it not being possible.

I wouldn't wish this on my worst enemy (if I had one). For all of you that are able to have children you should count yourself lucky. Also, if you are ever feeling like you don't want to put up with your kids know I would take them in a heartbeat if I could. Be thankful for what you have been blessed with. I'm trying to be thankful for the blessings I currently have in my life.

Stressed out

Okay, just a really quick post to let you know I am insanely stressed out. I actually started hyperventilating on my way to work this morning. I had to consciously force myself to breath slower and to get myself under control. My stress centers around the fact that next week is finals week and there is a lot of pressure to do well so I can actually graduate. I'm doing well in all my classes so I'm not really sure why I am so worried. I just need to keep telling myself to calm down.

Now I am off to work more on a paper I need to get finished. I will just keep repeating to myself that it will be okay.

On a happy note: less than 3 weeks until we move!

Thanksgiving Day

Elizabeth got a hold of the pot holders and I thought it was so cute watching her walk around with them that I just had to get a picture.

Anna and Dusty Butler

Yummy food!

The main event: The Turkey!

I thought it was time that I actually put some pictures up from Thanksgiving. We got together with some friends and had a small event. We all divided up who would do what and then we all ate at Dallin and Mckensie Pierson's apartment.

We started off the day by going shooting. I guess it is somewhat of a tradition for Dusty Butler. It would have been a lot fun usually, but it was just so cold that morning. I think Anna and I spent half the time in her SUV trying to warm up.

I was in charge of cooking the turkey since we have a roasting pan. My original plan was to put it in the oven before we went shooting at 8am, but I didn't because then it would have been done almost two hours early. I thought we would only be out shooting for an hour and that there would be plenty of time to cook it once we got back. Unfortunately I wasn't really keeping track of the time. I didn't notice the time until about 9:45. As soon as I realized the time I told Soren that we needed to leave. He said: "Okay, it 10-15 minutes." I had to tell him "No, we need to leave NOW!" We ended up eating later than we originally planned because the turkey wasn't ready. We ate at about 2:30. Hopefully people weren't too mad at me for pushing back eating from 1:00.

I also made the best rolls ever. Natalie Clark was nice enough to give me the recipe and they turned out so good. Every one loved them. All of the food was good enough to stuff yourself. However, oddly enough none of us seemed to able to eat that much. It made for a lot of delicious left overs though.

Last of all I would like to express the things I am grateful for. There are so many things I could list. Here are a few:

• My wonderful husband who puts up with so much from me.
• The fact that this is our last semester of school.
• To be escaping North Dakota's horribly cold winters.
• The fact that soon I will be back with family and friends I have missed so much.
• All the people that have made our time in North Dakota a little better. Thanks for your friendship!
• My cozy little apartment. I will miss it.
• To be alive and well.