Talk with the Hubby

So, when Soren got home from work last night he apoligized and pretty much expressed everything I said last night in my post. I had to ask him if he had read my blog post. He hadn't so it was kind of funny that he had same thoughts as I did once he had the chance to calm down. He said he realizes that I wasn't trying to embarrass him and that he knows that my blog is kind of like a journal to me. He promised not to read it anymore unless I give him permission.

I was able to help him realize a little bit that telling people what happened with his last test wasn't an effort to embarrass him. I have become super close with a lot of the women who are experiencing infertility along with me and we all share this kind of stuff. I also reminded him that anyone that knows us in real life and reads this blog would never throw his personal info in his face.

So, I guess I will keep blogging since Soren has agreed to respect my privacy. I don't really mind him knowing what I'm posting because I'm not trying to be secretive. I just want him to keep things in perspective in the future. I think he was upset about the post about his sperm analysis because he was already feeling sensitive about the subject. I have tried to assure him that it doesn't make him any less of a man if he can't get me pregnant. I know deep down he probably does think it would make him less of a man. I can understand since many times I have felt like less of a woman because I can't have children. It isn't true, but it doesn't change my insecurities.

So, to make a long story short: we have made up and I'm not going to be leaving the blogging world anytime soon.